“Be in love with your life, every minute of it” Jack Kerouac

 I have really struggled with this piece. All week-long I was waiting for some inspiration, a word or phrase or something to spark enough interest to enable me to write for the week. Nada! I found the week was ending and another beginning and I myself no closer to finding a topic to write about. So then yesterday, I had a long hard day, not hard in the way of physical, more my psyche was heavy and I felt somewhat wretched. I was in a bad mood, scowling at everyone all day. I felt like giving up, don’t get me wrong, I don’t mean really giving up like my life or anything that drastic no, just that in the recent weeks and months, I had made some resolutions and none of them seemed to be coming true, and I just felt like giving up on all my resolutions and going back to my old ways.

Then my Angel as always came through for me and finally suggested that we watch The Secret at dinner last night. I have been on her case to watch it for a few months. I actually think she offered to watch it with me to stop me from skulking around the house and growling at everything, and I suspect she was dodging work, but there it was, I finally got my wish. It was the best suggestion she could have made because in the process of watching The Secret again for the, God knows how many times, it uplifted my spirit and my grey mood dissipated, thank you my Angel. We watched it to the end and went off to bed. I feel asleep with a light heart and hope in my soul.

Looking back at yesterday and the grey funk I was in, I realize that life is not about living on a high, always happy-go-lucky and constantly smiling. Life is about balance; there will be those times when you find yourself in a slump and are not sure what is next and cannot be certain you can take the next step forward. Then there will be those times when you feel like you are floating on a cloud of optimism and contentment, when you feel like everything is going your way. Both, I believe are necessary, both are absolutely essential. What I figured is most important, is that when you are in one state, you should pay attention to the possibility of the other state; and realize that without the other state one would not fully appreciate the state they are in, or would not be aware that there is another alternative. Khalil Gibran the philosopher said it best in his work On Joy and Sorrow and I quote “Your joy is your sorrow unmasked, and the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears…”

Armed with this information and the power that is contained in my mind that enables me to control my life’s path and ultimately my destiny, I woke up this morning and in quiet reflection decided that it is okay to have grey funk days. Days when I have a personal thunder-cloud hovering over my head, as long as I recognize that once the rain is sated from the thunder-cloud; when I have worked through the angst that is within my psyche, then I should look up at where the thunder-cloud was and I will see the rainbow of hope, of things to be. I should look up at the blue sky showing me the beauty and wonder of the world and my place in it.